happy 21st? or jus like any other year?

Deng Deng....

Dunno how long never touch my blog d haha... many things happened lately... My com was sick n so was I guess.... Damn sien la.... Haven eaten my breasfast yet n its like nearly midnight d... Something bothers me these few days.... jus cant seem to figure out wads missing in my life.... Like not enuf thrills

Chamzzz

Do you get the feeling like ur past memories are haunting u at times even when u got over it? ive been getting that every now and then recently and it annoying even when i try to ignore it... I think im goin crazy.....

Not being able to get wad i wan is really anoying...SOMEONE PLZ GIV ME WAD I WAN!!!... aiksss... i feel so demanding... BUT... then again...wad do i wan? onli some ppl knoe wad i want though.... he or she know's that i can probably never hav it as it can b considered as jus a dream dat will never come true.....

My birthday wish list
1. to find real happiness
2. send my car over to KL
3. extra cash to spend
4. a love that goes both ways...
5. a miracle to happen
6. new clothes
7. new bag. the one i like is so ex @@

8. a new room decorated to my likings (getting sick of my room)

9. to meet sumone hu can giv me advise better than the ones i giv to others.

10. hmm... a nice n romantic candlelight dinner followed by a romantic nite...

the onli pic i hav so far of my car.. taken by my bro.. i miss my car T.T

Anyone out thr worthy enuf to fulfill this list? hope so lo.. hmm... im not exactly a materialistic person and i dun really knoe wad i wan.. it jus comes spontaneously and im a person hu prefers to feel.... most scorpios are like that i think.. its said that scorpios has the most emotional characteristic compared to other signs of the horoscope. n i luv being a scorpio.. its the most unique sign...

damn miss this car too. sad my mum hated it n sold it off.. its gone through wonders wif me b4 even impossibles @@ its been so much fun havin a manual car...

HMMM

FINALLLYYY i can continue my blog.... My home internet is damnnnn annoying... its a fridaY nite n im at home writing blog... wahh damn sad lo... But bo pien im too tired to go out also... was sleeping so nice till my housemate has to wake me up no matter wad coz its a friday nite..

Anywayss today i has a damn tiring kitchen day. And wad do u knoe i get to at least tok to sumone veri special to me today... wasnt long but atleast i did have the moment. @@ Aiks... Im bored.

This week is not a gud week at all... have not been able to blog coz internet at hme make me cnt access to my frenster, facebook n blog... damn pissed.. one of the worse part is cigarette price increased again sigh...... arghhh.. will update further when i can la....

Thing's ive always wanted to say to someone hu is worthy enough.

Girl: Do i ever cross ur mind?
Boy: No
Girl: Do you like me?
Boy: Not really
Girl: Do you want me?
Boy: No
Girl: Would you cry if I left?
Boy: No
Girl: Would you live for me?
Boy: No
Girl: Would you do anything for me?
Boy: No
Girl: Choose--me or ur life
Boy: my life

The girl runs away in shock and pain,
and the boy runs after her and
says...
The reason you never cross my mind is
because you're always on my mind.

The reason why I don't like you is
because I love you.

The reason I don't want you is because
I need you.

The reason I wouldn't cry if you left
is because I will die if you leave.

The reason I wouldn't live for you is
because I would die for you.

The reason why I'm not willing to do
anything for you is because I would
do everything for you.

The reason I chose my life is because
YOU ARE MY LIFE.

FrieNdS vs BF & GF

Which is more important?... Some ppl may think friends are more important. Others think otherwise... For me i think these two should not be put on the same page as both are equally important. How can 2 totally diff things be compared wif each other? yes your frens may think that u hang out too much wif your BF or GF instead of wif your own frens, n your GF or BF may think you hang out too much wif your frens instead of spending time wif them but both parties i should say are being too judgemental at times..

Its onli natural that sometimes we may get over board and tend to neglect the ppl around us. But This doesnt mean that we forget frens or the one we love. Frens should understand that it is not wrong to spend time wif the one we love... If we do not care, then BFs n GFs around would not be complaining about not spending enough time wif them... On the other hand, to BFs n GFs out thr, if u think your mate do not spend enough time wif you, their frens wud not complain as well about not spending enough time wif them. Thr is onli so much u can do in 24 hours so dun expect so much to hapen...
Does it matter if you put frens as your priority or your mate as a priority? yes it matters... as usual and its onli natural that this wun take so much effect on frens as they may understand if u put your mate as a priority. But putting frens as priority can sometimes be a big issue for some BFs n GFs. As a matter of fact these two parties should not be ranked at all. They are your love ones and the amount of care that u giv should be understandable by each parties. But still ppl think its bullshit to put frens first or the other way around. Is it becoz of pass experience? Probably.
The question is.... shud this be a big issue among couples or frens? through experience many has made this an issue and i think ppl shud giv each other space and try to understand each other ^^

Happiness?

What does it take to find pure happiness? I think that its veri close to being sumthing difficult to find... I dun think i can recall a week ive spent this year which is filled wif happiness wifout any obstacles obstructing in between that week.. As we all knoe, happiness comes from sumthing making us happy or sumone hu makes us happy. There are a few things in our everyday lives which has effect on our happiness. Commonly those of which are frens, family, money, BFs & GFs, and for ppl working thier career mayb. Although these things are the key to happiness in our everyday lives, these things can also be a worst nightmare at times...
Yes.. frens are no doubt always there for us... But can they help u in problems if its sumthing they dont knoe how to handle or sumthing they hav never encountered b4? or can they be there for u all the time you when nid them?.... Obviously frens will definitely try their best to help in wadever way they can but sometimes (no offence to frens concerned) its jus no use.
Family on the other hand can bring us happiness as well. Take me for example.. i love my family veri much.. Eventhough i hav a father who is divorced wif my mum due to his mistakes i still love him veri much.. My mum love kids loveessss kidsss jus as much as i do, my dad, sporting and loves fish as much as i do, lastly my bross well they get along well wif me and we do hav stuffs to tok about every once awhile... this does make me happy when tokin to my family.... but at the same time, there is also the part where family brings us burden.. Due to the divorce and the dumbass economy nowadays, mum's working damn hard to earn a living for us.. me not being in my hometown makes it hard for mum to do everything on her own and at the same time spend time wif my bros... dad's business is also not goin veri well nowadays and its really pulls away all the happiness that are available for me.. I think some ppl out thr may experience the same senario as me or sumthing similar so i think u get wad im trying to say..
MONEYYYY... sad to say, it really does revolves around everyone and everything... Like they say, "no money, no talk". Money is something that we touch daily... When spoken about money, it seems so simple but when it comes to reality, money is hard to come by... When we hav money we are hapy and tend to spend on thing we like or like doin. Then eventually there would be a time we end up over spending and end up broke.. This is when we tend to feel bored all the time as we do not hav a choice but to stay at home n be a gud boy or girl... So is money realy a factor of happiness? or is it a factor of bringing a person nothing but stress?
Hmmmm las but not least, relationshipsss... this is whr most our happiness comes from i guess... BFs or GFs normally gives us happiness as we are being loved by the person though gud and bad times.. they are the ones that will support us no matter wad happens.. no doubt that realationships gives us happiness like no other... but... there are always times whr disagreements comes along to turn things around.. Simple disagreements can always lead to anger n sadness.. This is normally caused by jlousy and trust. Y is it so hard to stay loyal to one another n giv in to each other? It wun kill you to listen to wad a person u love wans rite? this is wad one party always feels... for example SMOKING... a veri common disagreement among coupless... one may think and tell the smoking partner "if u love me u will stop smoking" yes... smoking is bad for health and it may also shows that the person cares... but one also has to knoe that smoking is not easy to stop when everyone in ur surrounding smokes as well. ppl say it jus takes will power but then again it really is hard for a smoker to stop when stress is nearby.. So how to we turn relationships into pure happiness wifout disagreements?
To conclude I wud like to say that happiness is no doubt sumthing that allows us in a way to continue wif our lives or to strive for the things we want to achieve. But the questions always ends up as how much happiness do we hav over sadness and anger? Is happiness really sumthing gud or jus a step which leads to sadness? many ppl will hav different point of view. some may think optimistically and some may think pessimistically. Its a matter of how u handle the situation to maintain the happiness instead of letting the situation evolve into anger or sadness or even stress.

Craziness!!! But entertaining

Las nite me and 3 of my frens were bored... so we decided to go Asia Cafe for a drink...... It was about 1+am when we were there. We were chit chatting our way to kill as much time as possible till we were tired enough to go home. Beside our table was a table of 2 girls and 1 guy. All 3 of them were total strangers to us... 1 of the girl sitting there ofcourse was attractive and cute... As any guy would do, all 4 of us were looking at her from now and then. I mean its natural.... Then we had this crazy idea of daring our fren to intro himself to the girl so hu knows we may end up frens in future... At first we know he dares but we didnt think he would actually do it... Few mins later out of no whr, he stood up n went to the girls table n start chatting wif them... lolzzz it was entertaining to see that my fren actually went to the table n chat wif them... He is one crazy guy I knoe...